I want to be the girl with the most cake.... I love him so much it just turns to hate... He only loves those things because he loves to see them break...
I fake it so real, I am beyond fake and someday you will ache like I ache

Someday you will ache like I ache

I know my mind is set changing wrong to right , Though I tried my best it leaves me sleepless nights

But I know it's real, what I do is real, I can't help it's real,
Though It fills me with regret and makes me wish we never met.. I can't somehow change my bet, maybe it's best that I forget

Try to find my way back home soon

Lately I've been thinking hard, wish I acted from the heart, Played another part, make a fresh start

But that would be surreal, that can not be real, The wrong end of the deal..
My heart would never agree, not be here if it wasn't me..

Another think

i want you to call me, i want you to text me, i want you to love me, i want you to regret, i want you to miss me, i want you to be here for me, i want you to fight for me, i want you to hold me, i want you to be gone....

i want i want i want.. but i have no idea whats going on in your head... hate that fact..
now that i decited that i will go to that "i-know-all-your-shit-and-i-am-right" lady, i cant wait.. i wanna go right now.. today.. but i cant.. it sucks...

im still sick yo.. keelontsteking and shit.. it makes me think alot and i dont wanna think bout that shit..

you know what my problem is? we had the best time ever.. we were so in love and he asked me of ik met hem wilde samenwonen.. 3 fucking times!! alles was perfect... ennu.. now.. it feels like everything was surreal.. het was een droom en het is er nooit geweest.. dat hij er nooit is geweest.. we were together every day and now.. ik heb hem 3 weken niet gezien.. longest i didnt see him.. thats okay.. ik ga er niet dood aan maar als je erover nadenkt... hey.. freaking weird..

i've been thinking about this for 2 months now and ik heb besloten om het te doen.. ik ga naar een.. how u call it? paragnost? is that it? someone who can tell you about your future.. i really wanna do it.. i think it will give me some kinda inner peace..

ik heb zelf namelijk echt zwaar het gevoel dat hij bij me terug komt.. and not just coz i want it, but.. i dunno.. people tell me they have the same feeling.. i dunno.. just wanna make sure.. give me some inner peace.. i cant wait for him to be gone tho... didnt hear from him for a week now and.. i'm koppig too, so.. hey!!! i'm not gonna call or text...

As she walks across thin ice she thinks for a while, don't have a life.
See now god has let her down,
She takes a last breath and tries to drown

She's sick off all of this andgives the world a goodbye kiss..

Now the book is finally done and all our memories are gone

now she's running and she's running away

i don't think you'll ever see her again...

ik heb afscheid genomen.. voor mezelf... niet tegen hem gezegd.. but i'm not gonna call him, text him or whatever.. i really dont wanna and i really dont have the need... i'm sick.. a fever and a cold.. it sucks and it hurts... coz nu lig ik dan de hele dag in bed, en kan ik een beetje denken.. ik wil hem nu zeker niet terug, maar ik mis wat we hadden, how we used to be, how we used to laugh, kiss, cuddle, talk, do all these great stuff... just be ourselfs and be in love...

i found out whats wrong... whats going on in his head... he is just fucking scared.. no other words for it.. hij is gewoon een bange poes..

Comfortable as I am, I need your reassurance
And comfortable as you are, You count the days

But if I wanted silence I would whisper And if I wanted loneliness I'd choose to go...
And if I like rejection I'd audition And if I didn't love you You would know

And why can't you just hold me, how come it is so hard... do you like to see me broken And why do I still care?

You say you see the light now at the end of this narrow hall.. I wish it didn't matter, I wish I didn't give you all

Poor little misunderstood baby, No one likes a sad face.. But I can't remember life without him,