sjees... i got the best job offer ever!!! mijn oude baan wil mij terug in the best way ever!! mijn droombaan heb ik aangeboden gekregen en dus meteen aangenomen!! its like fucking awsome!!!

but im so fucked up sad.. coz i cant share this with him... i cant call him and tell him that what we always hoped for finaly happened!! 6 months we were hoping for this to happen.. and now it happened and i cant share this... with the one i love (damn shit conio.. i still love him)

hoe dubbel is dit?? i dunno...

just makes me feel like... like i want him back. i want us back.. just like we were before... we were so happy...

you can not imagine how happy we were and what we did, what was said... everything was perfect ookal had (en still HEEFT) hij bindingsangst en wilde ik te snel...

ppfff.... help me... make this feeling go away...