A long time I was truly happy, but now that’s over. Now I am truly miserable, a broken man. I’ve lost a piece of me, a piece of my life, a piece I thought would be with me for the rest of my life. I try to forget so I can get some peace, but I can’t. Nothing feels the same to me, nothing makes me smile. I am broken just like my heart is. And I don’t think I will ever be the same again. The person I was is forever lost, I can’t smile, I can’t enjoy the simple things in life and I can’t even sleep normally because every time I close my eyes I see you. I feel like I’m slowly dying, slowly losing very feeling I have, all I’ve got left is sadness and nothing can make me the same. Why can’t I get it together, I guess this is what happens if you give all your love and trust to one person, this is what happens when you let your guard down. From now on my guard will never be down again, afraid to let anyone in. I feel used and abused, to do everything for one person no matter what and then just be tossed like I stone, like there are no emotions involved. Why can’t I just turn off the love I have, why isn’t my love going away. I want it to go because I can’t take this anymore, my heart is burning and my head is hurting. I just don’t understand, I thought that you get what you deserve, so I guess I deserve this, I deserve to be miserable, and right now it feels like I’m going to be miserable my entire life. I need help, help to get threw this, but I can’t even except help ‘cause I’m afraid to open up. This probably sounds strange to someone who never experienced this before, but I really feel this way, and maybe it is wrong to put this on the internet, but this helps me with the process… And for the rest of the time….. I guess bring on the pain….